What is this? What did I do or what am I doing differently that is making me feel so good? Where are the negative thoughts and darkness that always follow me? Perhaps it was going to bed earlier and getting a good night sleep. Or perhaps it’s something more than that. It’s simply pure joy, a happiness with life. It’s me – this is me. This is what it feels like to be truly alive.
It’s something so new and so different that it’s not until I find myself naturally living it that I notice it’s unfamiliarity. I don’t ever recall having felt this amazing before. This feeling that I am talking about is an utter joy and contentment with life. No longer a slave to the oppression hanging overhead, or easily swayed by the circumstances around me. But I am a separate being, new and independent of what passes me by. I’m in control of my life and loving what it has to give me. I’m loving me. I know this feeling is just a fleeting moment, but one day it will come to stay. I will no longer have to fear it leaving me, but I will live and taste this freedom the day my darkness is replaced with joy.
Today I want to encourage the woman fighting depression, the one suffering painful thoughts of suicide, and the many others struggling alone.
Your unspoken reality and the painful thoughts you live with are not your destiny. You’re not alone in your struggle and were never meant to be. Come out of hiding and let your pain bring you healing. Today is a new day, and if you don’t feel it to be so, tomorrow is yet another. Don’t let your fear keep you from freedom. Feel the shame and say it anyways. Say your thoughts; tell about your pain. Healing begins the moment we put ourselves in the position to receive help and expose our deepest thoughts.
You have power. You have the strength. And you’re not alone.